i dont know what to do anymore, i got married and i mean its like rediculous. its almost like nothing matters to him! like its still him and his world and im just a guest, instead of our world. he stil ignores me for days, and still doesnt even try to listen to me. it makes me just not want to be here anymore. i wish i would just have never gotten pregnant that way i could just go away, just run off and leave but i cant.
i just dont know what to do anymore. i am to the point that ripping out my hair and slitting my wrists seems like the most rational option. i mean i know its not, but it would just be so much easier than being here.
i just want to go back to where i used to be, when no one needed anything from me.
all i wanted was our world. and yet its still his.
he loves his fake guns more than me, and he doesnt seem to get the fact that he is an adult and he still does EVERY SINGLE THING THEY TELL HIM TOO. and yet nothing i say matters. they tell him to pay todd, i tell him not to cuz there are more immediate things than that dirtbag. and what does he do? pays todd and yet again brings up the fact that maybe if i had a job things would be different. i hate to sit there and scream at him abuot this stuff, but he doesnt hear me if i speak in anormal voice, mainly cuz hes too busy on his stupid command and conquor game, or trying to waste more money buying airsft shit. I HATE THIS!